I'm feeling

Kind of lost. Don't really know what to do with myself. Kind of struggling with a lot of inner thoughts...

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Friends or not, we are damaged

I'm speechless...

I have no idea why it took me so long to discover Jay Park's amazing-ness.

Give me your worn out soul...

Narsha is amazing. Case concluded.

Going to R. Theater today to watch Modern Times.

I'm feelin' so energetic

Woohoo. This song is actually in English. Life is good. :) College is nice. I am content.

The whole universe follows me and spins

BoA will always be amazing.

<3

The weird thing is though, that she can make sexual moves look classy. Probably because she's so petite/skinny.



I think I have a thing for her long-haired dancer. XD LOL

I'm fearless, that's my youth

Jam of the week. Well, for like the past two weeks.

Minzy's part is weird. LOL She's like 16 and saying she's 'hood, hood'

Otherwise the song is amazingly catchy, and CLs lyrics are amazing. Even the English version of this song is fabulous. (gasp)

And as always, Bom looks amazing with that red, red Ariel hair.

Even if you don't understand a single word, I'd recommend watching it just for the visual pleasure. It's one of the most beautiful MV sets I've ever seen, and for 2NE1 since 'Try to Follow Me'.

A post about college

I should've seen this coming... but I guess I just wanted to believe the best of people, and my own love blinded me. I feel pathetic.

College really changes people. Really. It does. People go crazy. It's incredible what people do the moment their parents leave them at the dorm.

Let me recap. It's been two full weeks of school for me. (today marks the beg. of the 3rd) and half a week of school for my friends at a different college. I talked to her just today and she told me she'd been to 7 frat parties, and had been drinking for the past two weeks.

Recap: This friend of mine, shall we call her S, won 'most innocent' in our senior mock elections.

Yes. Even I was like WTF.

I was shocked to say the least. She told me she was depressed because her clubbing plans always failed. And the only place she could get drinks from was her cousin. And then I proceeded to be disgusted when she told me in capslock, "I'M A GOOD KID. I JUST EXPERIMENT."

That's the most backwards logic I've ever heard. It's like saying, "I HAVE DUAL PERSONALITIES. LOL HANG OUT WITH ME."

Drinking is drinking honey. It doesn't matter how much or what kind you're doing. It still does shit to your mind and body.

Then I strictly told her she better not be drinking when I come visit her. She talked around the subject saying, "Well, it's not like you ever come."


It's been 3 fucking days of school. Of course I'm not coming.

Honestly, I'm reconsidering letting her in on my visit plans now. If she's been dorming for 2 weeks, and getting drunk for both... then... screw that. I have other, sober, friends I can visit.

Point of vent: People change, and you must expect them to, otherwise it hurts too much. I feel like one of my friends just... died. I honestly don't know this girl anymore. It makes me so sad. =(

Sad and angry. I want to punch her.



Alrightttttttt to lighten the mood here's a little quiz-thingy I took from Jenna!

In high school I was: Wintergirls (Laurie Halse Anderson)
People might be surprised: Sundays at Tiffany's (LOL OMG YES. I read a romance. Of my own free will. wtf.) (James Patterson)
I will never be: Fool (Christopher Moore)
My fantasy job is: Cardcaptor Sakura (LOL YES OKAY. I LOVE IT.) (CLAMP)
At the end of a long day I need: Hush, Hush (Becca Fitzpatrick)
I hate it when: Rumors (Anna Godbersen)
Wish I had: The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
My family reunions are: City of Ashes (Cassandra Clare)
At a party you’d find me with: The Reformed Vampire Support Group (Catherine Jinks)
I’ve never been to: The Forrest of Hands and Teeth (Carrie Ryan)
A happy day includes: Eyes Like Stars (Lisa Mantchev)
Motto I live by: Wizard's First Rule (ONE OF THE TOP BOOKS I READ THIS YEAR!) (Terry Goodkind)
On my bucket list: Mockingjay (Suzanne Collins)
In my next life, I want to be: Nobody's Princess (Esther Friesner)

Bonus: The Top Books I (re)read this year?
1. Wizard's First Rule (T. Goodkind)
2. The Stone of Tears (T. Goodkind) (sequel to #1)
3. The Lovely Bones (A. Sebold)
4. The Monstrumologist (R. Yancey)
(The 4th one actually had me sleeping with my light on for 2 nights! If you know me, then that's the equivalent of blasphemy. Such a cool/creepy book!