The whole universe follows me and spins

BoA will always be amazing.

<3

The weird thing is though, that she can make sexual moves look classy. Probably because she's so petite/skinny.



I think I have a thing for her long-haired dancer. XD LOL

I'm fearless, that's my youth

Jam of the week. Well, for like the past two weeks.

Minzy's part is weird. LOL She's like 16 and saying she's 'hood, hood'

Otherwise the song is amazingly catchy, and CLs lyrics are amazing. Even the English version of this song is fabulous. (gasp)

And as always, Bom looks amazing with that red, red Ariel hair.

Even if you don't understand a single word, I'd recommend watching it just for the visual pleasure. It's one of the most beautiful MV sets I've ever seen, and for 2NE1 since 'Try to Follow Me'.

A post about college

I should've seen this coming... but I guess I just wanted to believe the best of people, and my own love blinded me. I feel pathetic.

College really changes people. Really. It does. People go crazy. It's incredible what people do the moment their parents leave them at the dorm.

Let me recap. It's been two full weeks of school for me. (today marks the beg. of the 3rd) and half a week of school for my friends at a different college. I talked to her just today and she told me she'd been to 7 frat parties, and had been drinking for the past two weeks.

Recap: This friend of mine, shall we call her S, won 'most innocent' in our senior mock elections.

Yes. Even I was like WTF.

I was shocked to say the least. She told me she was depressed because her clubbing plans always failed. And the only place she could get drinks from was her cousin. And then I proceeded to be disgusted when she told me in capslock, "I'M A GOOD KID. I JUST EXPERIMENT."

That's the most backwards logic I've ever heard. It's like saying, "I HAVE DUAL PERSONALITIES. LOL HANG OUT WITH ME."

Drinking is drinking honey. It doesn't matter how much or what kind you're doing. It still does shit to your mind and body.

Then I strictly told her she better not be drinking when I come visit her. She talked around the subject saying, "Well, it's not like you ever come."


It's been 3 fucking days of school. Of course I'm not coming.

Honestly, I'm reconsidering letting her in on my visit plans now. If she's been dorming for 2 weeks, and getting drunk for both... then... screw that. I have other, sober, friends I can visit.

Point of vent: People change, and you must expect them to, otherwise it hurts too much. I feel like one of my friends just... died. I honestly don't know this girl anymore. It makes me so sad. =(

Sad and angry. I want to punch her.



Alrightttttttt to lighten the mood here's a little quiz-thingy I took from Jenna!

In high school I was: Wintergirls (Laurie Halse Anderson)
People might be surprised: Sundays at Tiffany's (LOL OMG YES. I read a romance. Of my own free will. wtf.) (James Patterson)
I will never be: Fool (Christopher Moore)
My fantasy job is: Cardcaptor Sakura (LOL YES OKAY. I LOVE IT.) (CLAMP)
At the end of a long day I need: Hush, Hush (Becca Fitzpatrick)
I hate it when: Rumors (Anna Godbersen)
Wish I had: The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
My family reunions are: City of Ashes (Cassandra Clare)
At a party you’d find me with: The Reformed Vampire Support Group (Catherine Jinks)
I’ve never been to: The Forrest of Hands and Teeth (Carrie Ryan)
A happy day includes: Eyes Like Stars (Lisa Mantchev)
Motto I live by: Wizard's First Rule (ONE OF THE TOP BOOKS I READ THIS YEAR!) (Terry Goodkind)
On my bucket list: Mockingjay (Suzanne Collins)
In my next life, I want to be: Nobody's Princess (Esther Friesner)

Bonus: The Top Books I (re)read this year?
1. Wizard's First Rule (T. Goodkind)
2. The Stone of Tears (T. Goodkind) (sequel to #1)
3. The Lovely Bones (A. Sebold)
4. The Monstrumologist (R. Yancey)
(The 4th one actually had me sleeping with my light on for 2 nights! If you know me, then that's the equivalent of blasphemy. Such a cool/creepy book!

Obligatory Birthday Post

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday dear Hadha
Happy Birthday to me!

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I'm 18 today! (finally, haha) And I decided to celebrate my blog post with Kangin, because I adore him so. I'm decidedly less bitter this year then I was last year. :) Mostly hopeful, but honestly, not too much because I have shitty friends. Oh well. I fully intend to enjoy this birthday on my own. :)

Hello, soulmate!

So... this is an account of my first two days of college! :) This is was taken from an email to a friend and savagely edited to make it appropriate for the masses. :P (My original email was hardly coherent.) So, here it is! The 411.
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Anywho, my first day was mostly silly. I had two labs (which don't start until next week) and one discussion, which was lame since we didn't have a lecture to discuss. So we just ended up watching videos. :D And then I stuck around until my sister was done studying. :) Which was around 4:30, and then we went home.

Well, day two was a lot more fun (and exhausting)... so I got to campus around 7:30 and it was pretty much deserted.. and I was like uhhm... okay deserted city... this isn't creepy at all. So I just walked around and figured out some shortcuts between buildings and such. It was considerably more fun than I had expected.

So then I had a psychology (vomit) class at 8 and it was HUGE. hugehugehugehuge. But it wasn't that bad, the teacher was okay, I didn't get any special vibes from him. The kid sitting in front of me was brown, and looking at wedding photos on facebook... so was I distracted? HECK YES. But it wasn't important anyways, since my prof. just ran through the basics. Afterward I was walking to the library and I saw F but she wouldn't hug me because she was deathly ill. That depressed me more than I would like to admit. =(

So then I found myself having nothing to do for a good three hours. I decided to meet up with N and she took me for a tour of campus. (Not really, she just ran errands all around campus and I tagged along) And then we went up to the honors library and sat there and tried to watch this dumb kdrama shes obsessed with, but she wanted to watch it RAW (as in, without English subtitles) and I was like uhmm... okay... I think I'll pass this time. Then M showed up after a while and we sat around and talked. :) And then A texted me and she was like yo lets meet up. So she came over to the library and the three of us, (we had ditched N, by this point) all walked to class, M left early and then I walked A allllll the way to her class (like to the door, lol) and then, lo and behold, I still had an hour to burn. So I went back to the library and I looked up books/prices on various sites and such because I'm a smart shopping student! *applause* AND THEN. Stupid, typical Hadhafang, I had to go to the bathroom 15 minutes before my class started... and it was about a 10 minute walk from the library to my class. XD Oh boy.

So I was almost late to Chinese class... but then I was not, thankfully. There's only 14 people in there so I'm glad I wasn't late or I would've stuck out like a sore thumb. BUT OMG it was sooooooo intense and amazing and I was like WHUT. I loved it.

As soon as I got out of class it began raining really, really hard. I was like uh... what now, Hadh? The lecture hall I was in... happened to be the only one WITHOUT a sitting area outside of class. So it was either stand around for god knows how long, or make a dash through the rain. So I was all UGHGUGHGUGHGUGH. So I decided in my infinite wisdom, let's make a dash for the library... and I RAN but it was so bad. I was dodging between buildings and I still got pathetically wet. As soon as I get to the library my friend comes out and she's all HAI THERE. I'M STILL DRY SO LETS GO EAT AT THIS RESTAURANT. My face was like :O, I mean honestly, I was drenched to the skin already. But being the angelic friend I am... I said yes. So I was like OKAY I'M RUNNING. BAGO!!! (that means 'run' in my language) I ran like UGHHHH and guess what? We missed the crossing light. So there's basically no cover near by and I feel like God left his shower on and it's flooding the campus. I run over to a mangy looking tree and find some shelter... but just my luck it thunders two seconds later! And then I was like WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE. Luckily by that time, the light opened up and I bulleted across the street.

3 minutes after reaching the restaurant... it stopped raining. :O

While my friend was munching, I went to buy my two Chinese books. :) They weren't that expensive considering they're brand new. :) And then after my friend finished eating, she also wanted to get books so we went back and I mysteriously met up with about 5 other people there. For some reason I happened to know more about the book store than my soph/junior friends and I had to direct them. :P

After the sun came out I started towards my Bio lecture. I was still really wet, and the hall I went to for my bio was stunningly gorgeous. It was an old church or something and there's a huge stone fountain outside, and it's all white stone. The inside had cathedral ceilings and so it was supremely drafty. And I was like AHHH NO. WHERE IS THIS COLD WIND COMING FROM?!?! I legitimately thought I would die from the cold.

But my bio lecture was actually pretty cool. I mean I was a little distracted. But my prof seemed really cool (he basically slammed physics, so I was like OMG, HELLO SOULMATE.) But he was supremely old... I mean old enough to be called decrepit. So every now and then he would turn off the monitor so he could search for something, and then he would forget to turn it back on, so he'd be typing notes and we'd be like UHH YOUR SCREEN IS OFF. But he was so absorbed in typing he never heard us. (lolwhut?) So every 5 minutes or so he would turn around to walk back to his chair and he'd notice the screen was off, and he'd say, "Was that off the entire time?" and we'd be like... "YES."

And then later I met back up with N and went home... at like 6:30. Hahah it was a long and tiring day.

But so completely worth it.
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Needless to say, I love college. It's the best thing that's happened to me yet. :P
But OH GOD. MY LEGS. ACHE. THROB. ACHE. THROB.

Ps. the retarded girl at the top dancing is Hyoyeon, an amazing dancer despite first impressions. I'm a huge fan.

I have lost...

All faith in humanity.

I haven't slept in two days. I cried all through taraweeh last night. I feel like screaming my head off. I am so scared for my soul. I'm ashamed. So very ashamed to be human.

The Art of Being a Cutthroat Bitch

Many, many things on my mind. All of them making me not-so-nice.

1. Can't stop being a sap. Don't know why.
2. My heart hurts a lot.
3. Had a huge fight with someone very close to me. I don't even know how to begin talking again.


4. You ask to much of me. None of us can be more or less than we already are. This is me. This is what you get. This is it. If it's not enough, then I'm sorry, but I can't "fix that."
5. I can go against the whole world for you, but I can't go against myself.
6. Allow me to be human. Please. I'm begging you.
7. Let me go when the time comes.
8. Don't call me back. It'll only make me weaker and make the goodbye more bitter.
9. I wish I could convey how much this hurts me, but staying hurts me even more.
10. You should be able to tell me yourself how much you love me, instead of me asking you.


11. This is a dance I'm too tired to dance any longer. Even if it is with you.


12. I'm sorry